lol fine. the volcano of mine erupted. i couldnt sleep almost for the whole of last night. it was silly of me to make myself think so much. ppl often like to do this to me. i duno why, maybe i often give in to things and just stand aside silently. forgive ppl when wrong things are done, not forgiven when i did sth wrong. it just always happen. not once, but many times. i already did my best. i think i just cant get too close to someone. when i get too close, i often tend to lose everything. its a bit rude to say this, but i've to say tt u're unreasonable kay. if u've read this post, you should think about this in the bottom of ur heart. what actually u're trying to do? u stressed right? its like.. am i not stressed? wa friday till now u had a 180 degrees change, thats like incredible. was a birthday present a first and last present to me? the present was me wasnt. it was the first, but long way more to the last. i already tried to talk in the best way i can, and tolerated as long as i could. if u're minding about the photos, sorry but i've already tried my best to research on getting back recycle bin files last night. i cant do it. if u're angry about me.. i really duno wats wrong. u dont seem to be such a girl to be angry with small things. ur frens say u're a attitude person.. but thats how ur friends think. not me. i cant help it if u wanna do this. independent? everyone nds friends, like i need you and the others. ok u just replied me. not gonna say so much. alright. i can do nth now but sit here and wait for ur reply. maybe i'll get it. maybe i'll not. but u're still my number 1 cousin. =)

-if im the one whos stressing u, tell me straight. are u very happy that if u break ur contact with me, u'll feel better? although i duno why. but i only know, losing you would make a big difference.