slept at 2.45am ytd. i juz cant get to slp. and i woke up at 9am. im like half dead alr.
think think think. i cant do anything properly nw. all the things are flooding my mindd.
how come? why? what happen? hmm yeah. probably i started everything ytd. i juz wanted to know whether she'll feel heartbroken if that thing happens a nt. but i didnt expect i said much more things that i shldnt say them. some stuff werent wat i wanna say. and i know that wasnt wad i really mean. but at that moment its like i didnt care so much and i juz said everything out. that wasnt wad i really mean actually.. im not hinting that we shld breakup. but i dun blamee her. normal ppl would take it as a breaking up matter. its not that i got sick of her and wanna dump her or whatever. its juz that i feel that someday it will end and i think theres a nd to end this b4 poly opens to prevent her frm getting hurt more deeply. when poly opens it might be a gd start for her. and i dun wanna spoil it for her if i suddenly tell her. 'lets break-up.?' den once again will affect the studies and mood. zz. i dun wan that to happen. anyway, im going taiwan this saturdayy! dear, take this chancee to slowly stop talking wif me ba. i hope u'll feel better when i come back. cheer up kayy.